As we grew older, I remember spending what felt like entire summers at Betty’s, I know you remember those times. Do you remember one New Years at midnight riding bikes around the neighborhood screaming happy new year? Laughing till we lost our breath! Starting high school, I became closer with all the other adopted sisters in the house and the fosters that would be circulated thru Betty’s. Do you remember helping tie sheets together to help two of the sister’s boyfriends get to the second story window? Watching them climb and balance on the edge of the pool fence risking it all just to play truth or dare. I do, god we were idiots. I know after freshman year things really started changing and you were treated unfairly by important people in your life and forced to leave your sister. You were so young trying to navigate life away from your sister, who was your rock, and everyone else you knew. You must have been so scared. Looking back on it now I feel you felt like you had no other choice but to do those things you were doing. You pushed people away because you felt you weren’t wanted, or people would be disappointed in your choices. I remember the pain in your voice when you’d call me and eventually I felt like you were drifting away from me.
We were so young. Yes, I was very opinionated, hell we both are, but let me tell you this, no matter what I love you, no matter what I’ve got your back.
We were supposed to grow together, but I’ve had to grow without you. I hope you’ve been able to do the same, I hope you are beyond happy and healthy I truly want the best for you.
I hope when you read this you smile and realize you never really left because you are always with me, in a thought, a dream, a song, in the moon and the stars.
Who you are is a big piece of me! My favorite memory is becoming your best friend.